R&R

After almost 6 months of slogging(well as much i hate to use the word- i really did)am on a break for 3 weeks.And the very first thing i started with is sleep..So much lost sleep to be caught up with :) Sleep now is sacrosanct to me and noone's actually calling it otherwise.Next thing is my movie marathon which is up and running again..And last but not the least in the list of to dos is my treatment for Sinusitis which is the main reason for my break.I hate it when the ENT specialist prods my nose with some goddamn thing and says "Atta gal you must have layers of hardened stuff in your head" And that actually makes me happy coz now that i have so much of grey or yellow matter in my head,no one can say that head is empty-oh comeon atleast i have something it ;)So yeah apart from the painful sessions of treatment for my Sinusitis, life is good.Bliss is the word to be precise- no office,no emails,no reporting on a daily basis - am in cloud nine atleast for the time being..I know after 3 or max 4 weeks i must get back to the same old routine but then who cares..These 3 weeks are just mine and am gonna enjoy them to the very last second.

Finally..After a real long time am here and the reason..i just discovered am romantically challenged :)Yes that's the hard fact and i have to live with it for this entire lifetime(not that i regret)..And the realisation actually made me think about the reasons as to why am this way :) And i have no clue at all..Either the choice of guys were wrong or i simply don't trigger the usual chemistry,biology or whatever nonsense.Oh yeah this also made me realise no matter what i do or say or how much ever pain i take in making myself presentable like a girl i simply can't behave or be like one :( Damn i nearly spent an all time high price for the change over but then no result..None whatesoever and nope am absolutely not worried about that at all..The only thing that nags me is the fact that if this state continues how am ie ver gonna find that Mr.right for me..As my mom fondly says that i just need to open my mouth and bahhhhhh comes the string of expletives - and lo behold the guy will have one fit of his life :) How the hell am i supposed to control something as involuntary as me swearing..Damn damn damn :(( But then i guess somethings never change and hey what to do -
"Am like this wonly " :) :)

Take a break

Break-up in a relationship can cause 2 things to you..Either you get to let out a sigh of relief and thank god that the relationship is finally over or it make your life miserable.Was talking with a friend of mine last night when he said that one his close buddy ditched him and our man is mighty down.I know that all said & done, you tend to get emotional,turn either into a crybaby or a closed shell or freak out everyone like nothing's wrong..In his case it was the very first option & for me it was the last one.I guess after a period of trying to make things work i realised that hey it's better if i just leave the way it is than sit and mop over the whole issue.
As for the reasons behind break-ups go, it could be anything or even the most trivial things in some cases.But in some it's a pattern that sets in.Off late after going through things over n over i realised that i had done nothing wrong in my case except choosing the wrong person to trust in spending my life with.Which brings me to the start again,that of the 2 options given i think am letting out a huge sigh of relief..Thank god that it's over - FINALLY

Chuck IPL for EPL - That's me

I hate CRICKET.Am serious - i just loath the game which is considered as a religion here in India.And people here worship the players as gods.My view is this - It's all for nothing & nothing for all, that's the return you get.The much hyped IPL is very much here and i just don't understand as to what is in it that people are / were crazy about.And this mindset of mine applies to T20 also.Don't understand what makes people go crazy over their fav cricketer (this guy wudda been cursed the most for his prev performance),why is the media creating such a big hungama over nothing that's worth watching.Yes,i know it's strange for someone who is an indian and doesn't like the game which has taken all the glory off the national game and which has all the glitz,glamour,gory er glory..Blame it on all the scams that shed a new light on the game which people love so much even now.I can actually hear couple of my friends yelling right this moment they read this blog.And this doesn't mean that i don't watch cricket at all..I watch it when the aussies play tough but even that these days have lost it's sheen.I know few friends who anyday will enjoy watching a match of soccer with me than watch Cricket.Not because we feel that it's cool & hep to watch football, it's just that we prefer it more than a fixed game.
For all you know after these matches we'll get to hear the way the players were bribed by Team XYZ :) Recently i overheard couple of middle aged ladies talking about Pathan & how his timely wickets saved that particular match or whatever. Looks like the days of Pathi being parameshwar is long past gone & now it is Pathan who's taken over :)

IPL go away ..EPL here i come :)

Say Cheese :E :E :E

Laughter is the best medicine they say. My dad's side is well known for their sense of humor - esp the sarcastic kind. And my mom after being with them for years now, is finally catching up with the same. A snippet of a conversation that took place between my ma & me..

Me : Lachhuma coffee please
Mom : You just had a cup of tea an hr back
Me : So
Mom : Just give it sometime & i'll get you the coffee later
Me : Yeah i know, am after all a second class citizen here

A distant voice says - you are not IInd class it just tat you travel Unreserved
Mom : No she is not Unreserved
Me : ??? – What the hell you guys are upto?
Mom : you are a just a WITHOUT (which means tat i travel without a ticket or whatever. Worse than being Unreserved)
Me : Grrrrrrrr (gnashing my teeth)
Mom : A big grin


This is just one snippet of many such conversations that happens at my place. Now i know why we (the whole BG family) are looked upon at some places & otherwise at my mom's side. Sad that my maternal side fail to understand this side of humor.

Deaddiction

Addiction was a term used to describe a devotion, attachment, dedication, inclination, etc. Nowadays, however, the term addiction is used to describe a recurring compulsion by an individual to engage in some specific activity, despite harmful consequences to the individual's health, mental state or social life.And for me off-late it has been Orkut esp Orkut Iyers.I have already blogged once about it but then i always had some serious discussion to talk about there then which was a perfect excuse i used.But these days esp for the last 4-5 months am a regular in OI and to call myself a regular is actually something less considering the amount of (at times useless)time i spend there.Was wondering for the last few weeks as to how i even got addicted this much but like every law in the universe - i got no answer :) .Probably it might have been coz of the fact that am at home now,enjoying my break and ofcourse unlimited net usage.

Put on my thinking hats again not that it helps but yeah just some lame excuse to ponder ;)No answer again. The only thing i did at last was that i decided i'll stay away for a while and check if i can actually get out of this so called addiction.Check if my will is as strong as i think it is.

Afterall someone once said ages ago "Will is willing but the flesh is failing"

Psycho-er-logy

What is it with Psychology and people?Everytime i come out and say that i have a Masters in Psychology i get a well earned look that screams 'hey now we know as to why you are weird' or the next inevitable question ' can you read my mind?' Psychology - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Psychology This explains it all.
Human psychology always intrigues me.Maybe that's why i chose the subject or maybe coz am just another psychologist who feels that it will probably give me some basic answers to my confused soul & head :) All thanks to Freud & James,not that i believe completely in Freudism.One common problem is that a common man fails to see the difference between a Psychiatrist & a Psychologist.We psychologists just identify the problems but to treat them we have Clinical Psychology.But Psychiatry is completely different.But all said it takes a lot of time to even explain the difference.Again beats me down to where i started - why is it that a human brain accepts group mentality easily than an individual?Why is it as an individual some people have less psychological quotient?Why is it that few of us can look ahead and read straight through one's thoughts?A friend of mine once said that it's violation of privacy :) can't deny that but it is not that we do that every single person who crosses our way.

Psychology that way is very interesting coz i personally have tuned my senses to a great extent where i can read a person and 90% of the time it's turned to be right on target & the remaining 10% - well you know that 'To Err is human' :)On the other hand it is NOT like i have a crystal ball and talk gibberish.And most of us are blessed with not just the ability to read one's mind but also with telepathy.Part & parcel of the subject.With this iam stopping coz i'll go on & on & on if i ever start on the topic.But planning to blog about certain other interesting stuff connected to Psychology.