Tic tac tic tac

My biological clock is ticking - yeah that's what iam gonna write about today.Am not able to hear the goddamn ticking but still everybody from my mom to some naani ki chachi ki beti tells me that it's high time i tie a knot.Tie a knot - whoa whoa whoa.To whom & for what.To be frank am a disaster when it comes to relationships..Well i can understand that esp from a guy's point of view - who would want to marry a tomboy,soccer crazy weirdo like me and suffer forever :) Just kidding.Well the point is that matrimony is the only word that's been echoing in my ears for almost well for a long time now.Some days i win,but mostly i lose the argument.My poor mom has tried everything,everything to convince me and here am single and still going strong :).


Well i agree with my folks & my buddy Krishna when they say that arranged marriages are not what i think.To me it's simple,let me know the guy and then let me decide about the rest.GOK as to why such things sound so simple but prove to be complex in real.Hey bhagawan do something or atleast put me in a time machine to escape- my B clock is ticking you see :)

TZP - Yet another review

To do justice to the number of movies i have been watching offlate - am gonna write about Taare Zameen Par.Am sure that every second person has watched it already but that doesn't stop me from writing about.

I was awestruck - that's the ony thing i can say when i saw the way Aamir has directed the movie.And for a directorial debute it stands a class apart.Probably we need more Aamir Khans with such decent flicks.The way he has portrayed a 9yr old boy who suffers from Dyslexia - a 9yr old who is looked down by his own father;by teachers n students at school,neighbours who complain about him and being sent to a boarding school which only makes him stop doing the only thing he finds solace in or the only thing he's good at - Painting.The story revolves as to how Aamir brings the kid out of his shell and makes others know that Ishaan afterall is a normal student and with a little help & patience can read ,write & pass tests like other students.The last 15 mins of the movie is something which impressed me so much.Splendid performance by Darsheel as dyslexic kid.One movie which i feel that most parents should watch & learn a lesson or two.But am sure that this movie alone will never make them not compare a kid with hi sibling or neighbour or his friend.And just that this movie alone is not gonna change the way teachers look at kids who are slow learners or have Attention Deficit Disorder.That much am very sure.Afterall this is a country which doesn't believe in sparing the rod.

The movie actually has made me check out for Disha - a special school for autistic kids.Hope i get to spend some time with kids there on a regular basis in future.

Newyear new hopes

Last day of the year..What an eventful year this has been right from day 2.To say i learnt lot of things in the professional & personal front would definitely be an understatement.Couple of things that happened within family brought me closer to my sis,things that strengthened my relationship with my best buddy.I learnt to take some hard decisions,learnt to let go of past - let go of lot of other things.And these are which would come along for a lifetime.And the way it started it's ending on an even more eventful note - all for good.I leave you all guessing on this :)

Hope to see best things across in the NewYear & am sure i'll

In the line of fire - literally too

It's just last week i finished reading Pervez Musharraf's autobiography - In the line of fire.Apt especially given the current situation.The now ex army chief speaks sorry blows his trumpet throughout the book;right from page 1 till the last page.He of all the person speaks about how Bhutto & Sharif and their likes plundered the nation of it's wealth & political freedom.Bah..For someone who says he is simple there's nothing simple in the way he thinks when it comes to India.Sly rather sordid way of managing the relationship between two countries.This man does believe strongly in what the Americans have to say,the way they ask him to go about ruling his country,politics & probably given a choice his personal life too.and yeah proved to be right now when the US asked him to step down now,he did without holding back.Civilian president - funny coz as far things have been there's not going to be any big change.Afterall the New Chief Army has been personally handpicked by the man himself.Not that we don't have this kind of high profile drama in our country.We had gone through our bit of Emergency (thanx to Indira Gandhi).Infact i had to appreciate his audacity for saying that he wouldn't have allowed his plane to land anywhere but India.Several such incidents where he could have just thought twice before putting it across in public.Afterall it's not a book that was meant strictly for Pakis alone.We unfortunate souls too have a chance to read throught the book.Was so sounding so childish that if this was given as our supplementary - kids definitely will have a laugh or two.For all that that's said in the book,we have a different version.And thanks to technology we can google & can learn the truth.Am not saying that India never made any mistakes,but at the same time the way he had put across certain situations was way too much.

Whomever said Love thy neighbour will have to take a leaf out of Prez's book.After all our man's eternally in the firing line.

Men may come & men may go

No if you think that this blog of mine's going to be about my relationships or anything - then you're partially wrong :)Yeah true that it's tough to decipher & understand a gal but believe me when i say it's tougher when it comes to guys.And the funny part is that me inspite of being the apple of the eye for few of them in my life i still strike a wrong chord or two.ALWAYS.With dad,Krishna & few others but the worst part is that everytime i try & makeup i endup falling flat.I don't know where i go wrong or rather how i can.Is it wrong to express myself coz i've even faced the wrath of one such person just because he didn't like the way i decided on a certain thing in my life and we just stopped speaking.

I say Yes & he says No and when he says Yes,i say No.I wonder when i'll ever get it right,i wonder when i ever will make it right and yeah wonders never cease :)

Love - Phewwwwww

This blog is specially for those 2 who make my life.One is my twin with whom i just can't stay angry & the other one is Krishna with whom i share the same feeling.These 2 are the ones i turn to when there's anything that happens in my life.Anyday anytime i know that i can turn to them for help,solution,suggestion - you name it they give it to me.With these 2 i have been rude,cruel,angry,happy,spent some best moments of my life infact lotsa super moments.And i have always felt bad in the end for treating them that way but yeah they understand me well that i don't have to think otherwise :) (taking too much advantage).And ofcourse another person i definitely will mention here is Ajay.That idiot to whom i crib,cry when i fight with the other 2.One who really has been patient in so many things & generally the rapport we share is just great.Infact we never feel awkward or slightly embarrased when am in bangalore along with Keerthi & Steve.

If i say thanx that's never going to be enough coz it's beyond that.Forgive me if you can when i have been reckless,thoughtless & idiotic.And never stop loving me coz it's just one rather the only thing that keeps me going.And i inturn will try & curb my temper,be a nice person & stop hurting with my words.Never stop being the way you are.

Love you Lamzu for what you are to me,Krishna - love you for putting up with my tantrums & Ajay for my usual self

On a serious note

On her way back from my aunt's place on one evening my mom saw these 2 old people who were standing on the road & asking for some change or help.Very old folks & with tears streaming down.My mom stopped by & took them to a nearby stall,got them some refreshments and in the meanwhile also came to know through the old lady that they have been asked to leave their son's house because his wife can't get along with them.Luckily while standing there wondering what next,there came another lady & said that she'll take them to a home nearby.Witnessed yet another scene y'day. An elderly man with a middle aged guy.The latter holding hands,trying to counsel or rather consol him for whatever it is.One scene which is very commonly seen in many of the old age homes & care centres which are on the rising side these days.Have always wondered as to what it takes kids to abandon their parents.Oh there are people who say that they spend a fortune in putting their parents in such homes but brings the question - can't you take care of your parents?Cant you have them near you if not in your own home & take care?Men esp who thinks that their wives are right when the she says that she can't take care of his parents but will willingly do the same to her side.I know i might sound biased or probably way out of my league when i say that it's mostly the ladies who prefer to take such decisions (they say they're forced - always).But at the same time i wouldn't deny the fact that there are cases when circumstances force you to take such decisions - but my only question is that why can't you have them atleast near you & take care?Won't it give your parentsa sense of support & security?On the flip side i have also seen kids being so nice out but then make their parents work esp the household chores inside.Well to say even my own grandmom is a victim of this emotional blackmail.When i was a kid,innocent,naive one i used to feel so good about the fact that my aunt wants my grandmom always.But when i grewup all of us know that it's purely for her own selfish reasons she wants her there :( & sadly my grandmom still can't differentiate chalk to cheese.

Am sure that neither my sis nor i will ever make our parents or inlaws go through this.I know the hurt & helplessness one has to go through.Am sure most of us wouldn't but then just leaves me with just one question - why do you succumb to such things,emotional blackmail,crying out loud,financial crisis & what not?Am sure answers are many for these but..

It's my life

Today i realised and i took a vow that i'll never ever have any kinda expectations or crib about something that i don't have.This is my 2nd visit to Kaakum Karangal and this visit only makes my decision stronger in adopting a kid in future.Seeing those kids' faces lighten up when they were given a new set of dress;had me think about the shopping me & my sis have done so far and i had tears in my eyes to think about the kids there.And it is just from today am gonna let of go of certain things in my life.Let go of my ego,short temper & what not.It's going to take sometime but hey i know i can do that.Probably will follow the policy of life is a like hand full of sand ;the tighter the grip,the faster it slips down.Afterall expectations never work in the way you want to and in the end you become responsible for your own actions & mainly reactions.

Letting go is always painful but hey the pain's just momentary when compared to what i might have to go thru my whole life.Coming this far in my life;i don't want to lose it.Well these are my own thoughts & am solely responsible for what i write here :)

Tanhayee

Kyoon aisi umeed ki maine
Jo aise naakaam hui
Door banaayi thi manzil
To raste mein hi shaam hui
Ab kahan jaaoon main, kisko samjhaaoon main
Kya maine chaaha tha aur kyoon kismat mein aayi
Tanhaai -Jaise andhero ki ho gehraayi

Adieu Hyd

Tomorrow will be my last day in Hyderabad.And somehow i feel that i'll definitely miss the place inspite of the minuses the city has.Have made lot of friends & few good friends and couple of very close friends.Never thought that i might find this place that good that i'll miss it but then that's the truth.And specially my association with 24/7.It's been memorable.Like any other place it has it's own share of fallen angels :) but still i have a whole lot of people i'll miss & vice versa. Athar my bro,Kaka,G House,Abhi,Priyanka, VJ,Anji and agents whom i know personally but then life goes on & so here i go.

And ofcourse i have to mention Chennai 24/7 - Paddy (my best gal),Pavi,Madhu K &S , Thyags,Giri,Bala,Nazeer,Ashok,Taarinee,Mridula..Man i'll miss them but still one plus is that i still can keep in touch.And why do i get attached to people so easily..GOK

A(B)SURD Syndrome

Am Smart U r Dumb

Something which seems to prevail with some of my friends or should i call them as friends is something which i never seems to get an answer.The reason behind this blog - simple.I met one such character on saturday while we went for an Orpahnage visit & then again on monday who managed to completely put me off.And believe me am not one of those i meet & i hate you types.Why is that some of us can't accept that probably the person whom you are interacting might have some knowledge on everything & that probably you might sadly lag behind.Grow up folks.It's not that all of us are dumb or that all of us are smart.

And am amazed by the attitude which they throw but then there again i have only one thing to say - if you think that being smart or trying to act smart might create a huge fanclub or audience to you - SORRY that's just not gonna happen ever.ABSURD isn't it to have an ego which is mountain high when you ar nothing but a mole :)

Sivaji - Mass disappointment

This time in home i watched couple of movies of which one is the oh -so-great- watever -Sivaji the boss- which turned out to be a crap.The other was Chennai 600028 which surprisingly was a low budget with not known faces in the screen but hey which was too good when compared to the former.

To start with Sivaji sucked big time right fromt he begginning & i fail to understand as to why so much of hype for such a mediocore movie.Shankar has tried to bring in his own the quintessential message to the mass with a mass oops sorry with a hero who is almost a demigod but sadly fails to create the impact which he did in his earlier movies.Especially the second half which had nothing except the typical Rajini masala with couple of his punch dialogues esp "Singam singla varum" which made me woer as to why then does this person have to come with the whole nine yards or all the spices ;) There's absolutely no coherency especially in the ast scene where he comes as MGR (yet another mistake) and the recent widow Shreya smiling at him with sindoor.But then with Sivaji around one must not use our logic :)

Sad that i ended up wasting my time watching this flick which is not worth a second time.

Harry Potter & the Order of the Phoenix

I've been to the latest Harry Potter movie on sunday.My first of the whole lot that were released so far.Well HP turned out to be good but can't watch it more than once kind.

And i must really thank my friend who patiently sat with me & introduced all the characters.The first 10 mins was something outta magic box kind to me (i didn't read the book) but then yeah the movie kinda captured my attention for the next 2hrs.No breaks & it's been a long since i enjoyed an English movie (Ocean's Thirteen doesn't count ofcourse) and i understood that the director really has a way to capture everyone's tastes - from a 5 yr old to a 40+ person which is simply amazing.Given the hype created about the movie & the book, i almost thought it too be yet another much hyped movies but then it definitely proved otherwise.

HP all in all was kewl & entertaining unlike some of the recent flicks i had the pleasure of watching :)

A 1000 Splendid Suns

When i bought the book all i was interested was just about the way the author had given the brief.But it turned out to be a real big surprise to me as i completed it at one go.

The story is about a little girl Mariam who grows in a remote village of Afghanistan & the way she's married to someone thrice her age & sent off to Kabul.How her life changes after that,how she copes with a husband who as days pass by changes into a volatile person.And then comes the part when Mujhahids occupy Afghanistan,their gruesome rule & the way each and every person's life change because of the same.At the same time we also get to see another young gal whose ife again changes after a single missile attack & how she gets attached to Mariam's life.Then the rule of Taliban..

It's all about 2 women who give up lot of things in their life,settle down in the same house as wives of one volatile mean husband who ends up getting killed one night by Mariam.And how Mariam makes the decision of accepting the crime but at the sametime makes a new life for Laila ,her daughter & son.You get to read about the extreme cruelties of every single person during theTaliban period has gone through & not to forget the period before that.And not to mention lot of good moments where in you get to read about how big the word TITANIC meant to them then.

Somewhere this book definitely touches a raw chord in every single reader.But then again some might get easily bored with the same.Afterall opinions differ - Don't they

A good read after a long time

IND(B)ORE

Aataa - Jhoom Bharabar Jhoom..That's how i would rate JBJ.As pathetic as it can get and i couldn't wait to get outta the movie hall for both the movies.Ocean's Thirteen on the other hand was good (can't expect anything else) atleast better when compared to those mentioned earlier.With this i think am done with my movies as of now atleast coz i never seem to get the tickets for the oh-so-great SIVAJI anyways.
Back at work,right now in Indore on a consultant jobfair which turned out to be a dampner,thanx to the rains and people giving the same excuse for not turning up here at the consultant's place.3 days of journey & nothing fruitful.

How i love this!!!!!!

Marathon...on movies ofcourse

I've been watching lotsa movies from my last trip to Chennai.In Chennai it was about some 18 movies within 3 days & last sunday it was back to back movies in Hyd & one each on mon & wed.But the best was this..Life in a Metro had a A cert & i feel that can be watched by everyone where in the gol movie Aata had a U cert but boy oh boy..Na na kind.Makes me wonder as to how it ever crosses the censor board :)My mistake that i even went for a gol movie..A gol movie is a gol movie is a gol movie as Krishna says & hey hats off to you

More to come..Probably starting with Ek Chaalis ka last local

Master / Visa - Do i care?

Flight ticket to Chennai Rs.4000
Taxi from Airort Rs.300
Ticket from Chennai to Hyd Rs.700
Surprise smile on sis's face Priceless

There are somethings money can buy & for everythingelse there's my Master & Visa card :)

And am getting back Chennai for a different reason altogether today but still the above said statement stands the same

Bad start

When things go wrong they definitely do in a big way.Or atleast that's the case with me.Wokeup late (which i always do),had my bath & then realised that i donot have a single set of salwar to wear :(..So stuck to casuals & took the auto to my new house..And then realised halfway through that i have forgotten the keys to my cases & my id card..So asked the glaring,fuming autowallah to get me back to my friend's place for the card & keys.Travel back to my new house,change & step out in the same auto to my office.Reached here around 1.15PM and saw that my VP for HR OPS is here :( Went out for lunch with him along with the team ofcourse.A nice person & special bond between the both of us coz of the Chennai factor.

So here am after a nice lunch,fighting a bad headache but still here.Hope nothing goes wrong and am able to push off home early today.Early by 10PM max

R&R

Never book a ticket in Air Deccan even for free is the lesson i learnt last Friday.2hrs of delay & they had not an iota of idea as to why the delay.And had the nerve to say Thank you for choosing Air Deccan & we regret for the slight delay :) On the whole last weekend was good.I never stepped outta my house for once, all 2 days i was there.And watched about 6 movies.What better way to R & R on a weekend.Only thing i missed was meeting my colleagues in Chennai Centre.Now back here in Hyd,and the hunt begins for a house & the regular jhunjat of joinees & attrition & what not.

Hope i get to find a house before i get thrown out of my GH.

Grrrrr

2 hectic weeks..My trip to Bijapur was uneventful except for Ayesha whom i met & befriended there.So simple & yet so elegant.She along with Aliya made my day when they took me to Golgumbaz & Ibrahim Roza which made my day.First thing that struck me when i entered Golgumbaz was thw way it's maintained neatly unlike some Golconda & Charminar (Phew).Really neat,no litter around & well maintained gardens.Was a different experience after visiting some of those oh so famous places in Hyd.Just back from Chennai & feeling a bit home sick :)

And from next weekend it's gonna be boring.No more ISB & no more Krishna in Hyd :( But that's way life is & i have to just take it.And the drooping of my eyes remind me that am supposed to shut shop & push off from work..Wish it's as easy as said